Russian Roulette

As I listen too the violin's play, it starts messing up my mind frame. Who would have thought you would become a voluntary migraine. Click, click, click, even if it shot, it would've been a warning shot, cause I was too scared to take aim. Maybe out of respect for the road we were on before the car switched lanes. I'm just saying, I was love sick and this girl was the cause and the antidote, I was a Jamaican starving, she was my oxtail and my curry goat. I was Obama, she was my can of hope;........Hope, is a funny thing when there is a noose around your neck and your trying not to choke. They say that love can leave you breathless, well damn it, this relationship was the tree and the rope. It's funny how things change so quickly, one day your kissing, then things change, but life is about change, so should you care when a person goes missing? Love came, we bloomed like flowers, so weren't we supposed to get stronger with the rain. They say that men face reality and women don't, that's why so many men have a drink at the bar before going home or get some weed to smoke.We try to brace ourselves our better, escape ourselves. But excuses never work in this great world of ours and some wounds are to deep to ever heal the scars, so deep they may call on the law. But don't get me wrong, I'm drama free, last of a dyeing breed. I wouldn't lie too you cause I don't like it when people lie to me. I don't mind when women stereotype me, cause they just lost the opportunity too see my passion and consistency. You see, I was taught never get mad at something your not surprised about. And Jay-Z said not to argue with them fools cause from a distance you can't point them out. They say when you want action, don't ever close your mouth, so when she wanted to leave the house, i was more than happy to walk her out. But what i can't understand is why if you ask for the trade cause the team wasn't winning the games we played. You got your yellow brick road in the direction you wanted it paved, but get mad and hate me cause the same house was worth a-lot more now that you had the whole block appraised. That house you can keep it, its not the shell but the core that made it priceless, cause I'm not going to wage war in my own home, especially when the other person wants me silenced.

The thing with me is that I stand strong through the danger and never get afraid, thats why I was the last one on the ship when the adversity came. God has a better way so I don't second guess the direction just for just cause, I believe it, some people employ themselves in hate as if its a second job. It takes more energy to be mad than happy, so if thats the case then your working too hard. I've seen it before, thats why i embrace the pressure, I'm a very smart man but will still sit down and listen to a lecture. It may help me get better, but i insist on the truth, rep it and believe it. She burned the bridge, is it my fault she was standing underneath it? BANG, the bullet just flew out, someone help me, as i look around, but no ones harmed, everyones still healthy. No casualties sustained, but this is a deja-vu cause, I can swear that I dreamed it, I seen it, I'm not worried, its something that I can deal with. It's her turn, bullet in the chamber and a spin of the barrel. If she pulls it, I won't blame her, but unlike me she won't aim for my shadow. My hands are in the air, I'm not scared if she use it; I may die but where both the loser. I don't plead, I smile, again, aim is taken, she has calm hands, so the gun is not shaking; Imagine being killed by your one time biggest fan. I close my eyes with the thought of the irony, laugh and say "damn", then listen...............click, click, click.....................BANG!!!